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More journaling I haven’t posted due to the chaos of the season #2

These are a short, meaningful posts I’ve recently put up on our Mabry Living Facebook page. I want them to live on this blog as well. Although I journal publicly for others to hopefully gain strength and courage, I write and post the blogs as reminders to myself to live each day with gladness and hope in my heart, no matter what my external life temporarily looks like.

December 4, 2015

December 5, 2015

Last night when I arrived home from my craft show John and I sat down and attempted to converse. It didn’t take long before the conversation went south due to my tongue saying too many words. The discussion was not helpful or healthy for our recovery. I have to give John credit for ending our powwow quickly.

Now is a great time to take what I have learned from reading the Bible and apply it to my everyday life. For example…

“Be quick to listen, slow to speak, slow to anger.” –James 1:19

This verse is going to take a lot of practice for me! The foolish woman within me want to keep talking while the wise woman within understands the power of my words as well as my silence. There is probably a good reason that the words “LISTEN” and “SILENT” are spelled with the same letters…THINK about it!

So the next time John and I attempt to converse…

I am going to T.H.I.N.K. before I open my big mouth!

T- is it True?

H- is it Helpful?

I- is it Inspiring?

N- is it Nice?

K- is it Kind?

#james1 #quicktolisten #slowtospeak #onestepatatime #learningtoloveagain #healing #recovery #marriage #zipit #thinkbeforeyouspeak

December 7, 2015

I just saw this morning that the band Brothers Osborne received a Grammy nomination for their song, “Stay A Little Longer.”

Back in June, John and I were part of the music video for this song. It was quite a learning experience as I was forced to step WAY out of my comfort zone. This past year I have been diligent about facing any fears that come before me. Lets just say that making out with a camera right up in my business falls into my “fear” category…next on my fear list is public speaking (yikes!). I believe that in order for me to grow as a person, I cannot allow my fears to have a grip on me. Life begins at the end of my comfort zone. Its only when I face my fears that I can bury them for good. Since Mabry Living has a lot of new life cheerleaders following us I thought I would share a blog post I wrote about our experience (music video included in blog).

https://mabryliving.com/2015/10/09/the-behind-the-scenes-of-our-music-video-debut/

#facingfear #goodbyecomfortzone #grammys #brothersosborne #countrymusic #stayalittlelonger

 

December 7, 2015

John and I are taking things one day at a time as we adjust to being around each other again and rebuild our relationship. It isn’t an easy transition by any means. This experience has been extremely humbling and embarrassing for me as I am sure John would agree. I find myself thinking, “are we seriously dealing with active addiction again?!?” I struggle with patience while I crave long term sobriety in our marriage. This journey is hard and it is very sad.

Today, I am clinging to the following Bible verse,

“Always be HUMBLE, GENTLE, and PATIENT while accepting each other in LOVE.” Ephesians 4:2

As hard as this process is, I know humility opens a door for personal growth. Releasing the pain that is weighing me down will allow my broken wings to be healed with LOVE so that one day I can and will FLY again.

I have hope and a sense of peace as I continue to trust God’s plan for my life. I know one day all of these trials will make perfect sense. It’s in God’s timing, not mine…that’s a hard concept for me to grasp. Oh how I wish I could push fast forward on the “life” remote.

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‪#‎patienceisavirtue‬ ‪#‎humble‬ ‪#‎humility‬ ‪#‎healing‬ ‪#‎recovery‬ ‪#‎ephesians4‬‪#‎lovewins‬ ‪#‎brokenwings‬ ‪#‎addiction‬ ‪#‎wifeofanaddict‬ ‪#‎rebuild‬ ‪#‎reconstruct‬‪#‎hope‬ ‪#‎faith‬ ‪#‎truelove‬ ‪#‎7×70‬ ‪#‎forgiveness‬ ‪#‎sobriety‬ ‪#‎marriage‬


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