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Hello, my name is Sarah and I am a wife of an addict

My intention for creating Mabry Living was to have an outlet to let my voice be heard and to share my views and experience through our family’s journey. I want to be truthful, raw, hopeful, and inspiring through my writing. I find writing to be very therapeutic in my healing process and that is why I do what I do. Releasing my truth frees me and my hope is that it may touch someone else in a similar situation.Seagull_dropping_clam

With that being said, our family has been attacked again by the terrible monster, ADDICTION. I truly despise this disease.  Just when I feel like I am getting to a point that my heart is starting to mend, addiction swoops into our home like a seagull, sh#*s everywhere, steals my husband and my trust, leaving me to clean up all the mess. I am no doctor, but I believe addiction to be a spiritual related disease. To me, the Devil sees that our family is thriving, healing, mending, loving, and living a God focused life.  Nothing fuels the Devil’s fire more than seeing a family overcoming obstacles, never giving up, and growing stronger as a family unit. Boy, does this just piss him off! When our inner lights shine brighter every new day with God’s love, the Devil must shrivel up and throw a tantrum. Yet, somehow, someway, he still finds an entrance into our home and attacks with all of his power. What he isn’t catching on to is that every time he tries to destroy our lives, it only makes me strong in my faith and a tougher warrior.  Hanging right in my closet is my armor of God.  It’s not the most stylish look, but I am going to rock it every day and make it the new fashion trend…just you wait and see!IMG_9007

Yesterday, the Devil swung the door open into our lives and made his grand entrance. The ‘door’ had been ajar for a few days and I tried to slam it shut but addiction was serving as the door stopper, blocking me from turning the lock and dead bolting the door. However, just because the Devil is present in our home does NOT mean that he won the war! I will continue to fight this battle without ceasing with the help of God’s angel army and a whole lot of prayer warriors.  Luckily, I also have my boys’ Spiderman boxing gloves, Dollar Tree nunchucks, Nerf Guns, and plastic brass knuckles to use if needed!IMG_9009

All of this sucks, I just hate it! Addiction has stolen so much from me in the past and I refuse to let it rob me of anything else in my life. I am making the choice today to seek joy, trust God, reach out for help from friends and professionals, and do my best to continue moving forward in life with my head held high. I am going to try…keyword TRY…to not let the fear of the future consume me.  Living one day at a time will allow me stay present in this chapter of my life’s story.  Why should I fear of how my story will end when I am not even there yet (please remind me of this on the hard days, friends and family)?  God is the author and he already knows how my storybook ends and I have comfort knowing he will be walking along side me through every life chapter.

Am I scare? Yes

Am I sad? Yes

Am I angry? Yes

Am I hopeful? Yes

Do I still love John (my husband)? Yes, with all of my heart.

Do I think God can use this situation for his good? ABSOLUTELY!

This morning I contemplated if I should stop Mabry Living all together, drop out of my upcoming craft show, and not redo my family room (which I am in the middle of redecorating and something that makes me very happy).  It only took a second before I heard my soul screaming, “NO!  YOU MUST KEEP GOING! Continue LIVING, LAUGHING, and LOVING.” So, here I am this afternoon sharing a post I prayed I would never ever have to write.

To all the prayer warriors out there, please lift our family up in your prayers.  Thank you!

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15 thoughts on “Hello, my name is Sarah and I am a wife of an addict

  1. Sarah,
    You are absolutely the strongest woman I know. I love you and your family- My heart is broken for you and will heal as I watch your family grow even stronger with each passing day. Many prayers are being said for you, John and your sweet family. Your story is amazing and with all my heart I know it doesn’t end here- not even close. I’m always here!!

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  2. I live in your neighborhood and was so inspired by the article in Ladd Park Living. Fighting addiction is such a damn tough thing for the addict and the family. Have been part of the battle for many years. You are all in my prayers.

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  3. Sarah…. The Holy Spirit speaks and shines through you. I have admired your perseverance through the years… Your persistence paid off with a precious family and increased faith. I wish that I could give you a big ‘ol Texas hug right now. Keep on keeping on… You have a faithful Father working on your behalf. One thing is for certain, no matter what arrows satan throws at you and your family, he can’t change the end of your story… Victory in Jesus and an eternity with him๐Ÿ˜Š. Love and hugs from bear country๐Ÿ˜‰.

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  4. Sarah, I have and will continue to pray for you, your children, John and his support team. I am here to help with able hands and warm heart. I can give you time, help with chores, babysitting, ears, ect. Call and just let me know.

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  5. Sarah, So sorry to hear this! I know your journey is never what you imagined more than ten years ago in an art room in Waco….BUT I also know ten years ago you could have never imagined how INCREDIBLY strong you would become, nor how intimate the embrace of your Heavenly Father would be. Just your courage in writing this is bringing GLORY to God. and that is the WHOLE shebang, ya know? You do know.

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  6. Your story and the wisdom that comes from these days is so important. Thank you for your honesty in an area where we are very practiced in covering up our brokenness. Prayers for comfort and peace for this journey…

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    • Thank you, Sheryl! I really appreciate your honest feedback. It’s people like you (and comments like yours) that keep me going in uncertain times. Bless you and your family this Christmas!

      P.S. If you enjoy any of my Mabry Living posts please share them on your social media sites so they can reach more people. I truly appreciate it! Sarah

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